From Dylan Klebold's diary:
"You don't consciously know who I am, & doubtedly unconsciously too. I, who write this, love you beyond infinice. I think about you all the time, how this world would be a better place If you loved me as I do you. I know what you're thinking: "(some psycho wrote me this harassing letter)" I hoped we could have been together... you seem a lot like me.
Pensive, quiet, an observer, not wanting what is offered here (school, life, etc.) You almost seem lonely, like me. You probably have a boyfriend, though, & might have not given this note another thought. I have thought you my true love for a long time now, but... well... there was hesitation. You see I can't tell if you think of anyone as I do you, & if you did who that would be. Fate put me in need of you, yet this Earth blocked that with uncertainties. I will go away soon, but I just had to write this to you,the the one I truly loved. Please, for
my sake, dont tell anyone about this, as it was only meant for you. Also,
please don't feel any guilt about my soon-to-be "absense" of this
world. [arrow points to a note in the margin that reads: "It is
solely my decision: nobody else's."] Oh... the the
thoughts of w us... doing everything together, not necessarily
anything, just to be together would have been pure heaven heaven.
I guess it'sTime time to tell you who I am. I was in a class
with you 1st semester, & was
blessed w. being with you in a report. I still remember your laugh. Innocent,
beautiful, pure. This semester I still see you rarely. I am entranced during
5th period, as we both have it off. To most people, I appear.. well... almost
scary, but that's who I appear to be as people are afraid of what they don't
understand. I denied who I was for a long time. until high school...
"You don't consciously know who I am, & doubtedly unconsciously too. I, who write this, love you beyond infinice. I think about you all the time, how this world would be a better place If you loved me as I do you. I know what you're thinking: "(some psycho wrote me this harassing letter)" I hoped we could have been together... you seem a lot like me.
Pensive, quiet, an observer, not wanting what is offered here (school, life, etc.) You almost seem lonely, like me. You probably have a boyfriend, though, & might have not given this note another thought. I have thought you my true love for a long time now, but... well... there was hesitation. You see I can't tell if you think of anyone as I do you, & if you did who that would be. Fate put me in need of you, yet this Earth blocked that with uncertainties. I will go away soon, but I just had to write this to you,
I guess it's
Anyway, you have noticed me a few times, I catch every one of these gazes w. an open heart. I think you know who I am by now. Unfortunately...
think I'm crazy, & want to stay as far away as possible.
If that's the case, then I'm very sorry for involving an innocent person in my problems, & please don't think twice. However, If you
This letter was written by Dylan Klebold, one of the killers of the famous Columbine Massacre.
You might be asking yourself..."why? why posting this?" well, many people just see the monsters that they became when they did what they did (taking innocent lives) , but there's a few who think about them as what they were before:
-Bullied kids
-Lonely kids
-Misunderstood
-Just High school Kids
No one really asks or wonder about what happened to them?, who hurt them so much that they went so mad and got detached from the world , the feelings? They didn't want to feel anymore. Who or what did that?
Either way, this letter is from Dylan's diary ... he did love, he did feel, he wanted happiness, and warmth , and love and be loved in return. This was a real person, with such deep feelings... it hurts to see that someone who think and feels this (sweet) way... was ruined by life, by time, by things we can't control, by people who doesn't care about others. For me, it's worth remembering him, as what he was before. He is the kid that is in your high school, here, there, everywhere.... If you see someone who need help, who needs someone to listen, someone who cares, don't hesitate and help. Don't let this happen to another kid...don't let the hate in them grow, don't let a person die inside. You can save someone with a few simple words like:
"Hello, how are you?"
